My head is full of bad thoughts. I don%u2019t want to think anymore. My little brother is having trouble and I can%u2019t be there for him. Waiting for my dad is driving me off the wall. He didn%u2019t come since Monday and I%u2019m now worry that something might%u2019ve happened. I wish someone was here to talk........

You a loser necrole. You can%u2019t keep me down anymore. Yes I have become what you feared more. I am the stronger of us all and you can%u2019t keep me from doing what I want. I RULE!!!!!

i protect, but I fear I can%u2019t anymore. I%u2019ve always been strong, but now after so much pain I%u2019ve become weak and my desire to protect is fading away. I have fail many times this pass two year. I have left things happen that I should%u2019ve been able to prevent. He has grown stronger with every passing day and I%u2019m left weak and unable to protect. We have always fight and I have always win, but now I loose. Idk what%u2019s wrong with me, is it that I don%u2019t care anymore? Or that he has grown too strong for me to handle. Idk what to think of myself. I am failing
I should try to protect

My spirit is broken.
My will to go on is fading
With each day, I die a little more inside
My mind is rattled with horrid thoughts
I fear I%u2019m becoming what I hate the most
An uncaring person
I fear I won%u2019t ever leave this place for with each passing day, things seems to get worst
I want to get better, but there%u2019s a side of me that refuses to cooperate
Today was no a good day
Now I%u2019m left tired and wishing to die
My body is wasting away a bit at a time
Walking around is hard and painful
With each step I feel I%u2019ll fall for my legs are weak and my head spins
Death will be a welcoming sign
I need to rest.
To forget
To be free to make my own choices is what I wish. To be able to stand on my own two feet without any help. To keep me from going more insane , I sleep, I draw, I write and I try to talk when ever I get a chance.
I am my own enemy for I hate who I am and what I become
I%u2019ve become a joke to everyone around me

what if the people you talk about are monitoring you through the website too? I\'m probably wrong, but you never know.

this people. They make me so Agrevated that I could take their heads off. Why don\'t they go and bother someone else. I\'m no a ing child to be looked after. I want my freedom back. I want to be home and be with my family. Why doesn\'t my father understand that this isn\'t doing me any good. With each passing day, I grow more angry and more confused. I wish to end all this and be free of all this stupid people that think they know it all. Just because you have a degree doesn\'t make you any smarter than another person. I might be crazy and clueless at time , but I\'m no a child anymore. I do no wish to live like this anymore. I had enough of all this trying to help me . I don\'t want help, I want to be left alone.

As I wake my mind wonders to dark places. I dream of giant fighting to survive. My mind is full of unexplained thoughts and unseen creatures. I feel I%u2019m one of them for I myself transform into many others as they do. This giants walk through walls and do no speak. Their appearance is like mines. They destroy what they touch and the ground shake beneath their feet. Their eyes glow red and their hair is fire. The sound they make is deafening and aerie. I get goosebumps as they pass in front of me and I feel the heat from their body burning through my skin. I try to walk away, but I%u2019m tight down and cannot get me free. This giants live with us, but they don%u2019t like us. At every chance they get, they want to destroy everything we build. This place where I am , is no place for me. I wish to leave and never look back. My mind is broken and my body is useless. Each day that passes I feel worst and distant, disconnected from reality

Get well soon

Breathing is hard. I%u2019m so tired. My heart is beating very fast and I feel dizzy. My chest hurts, but I refuse to let anyone know and I cower in a corner of this very uncomfortable mattress. I don%u2019t want more medicine for I take enough. I feel light headed and I think is because of all this drugs I%u2019m taking, but nothing seems to be working the way they supposed to. Sometimes I want to refuse them, but I know if I do I%u2019ll be forced to take them. I don%u2019t know sometimes where I am. My existence is painful and tiresome. I wish to rest for ever. Soon........

Slowly waisting away. Isolated from the world. The only means of interaction, the world wide web. I\'m tired of looking at this white walls, I wish to paint them red, cause I like red. I\'m tired of going from the bed to the couch. I want to feel the sun on my face, feel the wind through my hair. I want to go to the beach and dive into the cold water. I want to feel the sand , see the seagulls. All of this seem so far away. One more summer lock away, one more year without real friends. My father and I don\'t get alone and he\'s the only one that I could see. Visitation deny on the count that I am \"unpredictable and a danger to others\" although I wouldn\'t hurt a flie, I\'m treated as tho I had kill someone. One mistake and you become a nobody........