BrandonCP (2015-01-30 04:53:08)

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Because of the feelings that I have accrued over the past month or two,
I only feel like an explanation of my mindset is due.
They say that everybody wants a love that's true,
And that another day can start anew

However, I've been taught differently, I might add
To think things through; not as others had.
These sorts of things have driven me mad,
Learning salience, of anything that had ever made me sad.

I could come clean to you, explain my feelings upfront
But I simply can't; I'm not a blunt.
Your friendship is too much for me to risk,
For my mistake could be our permanent end.

If I bottled it all up, forgetting what I could've said
The depression would kill me; kill me 'till I'm dead.
Watching you be with others would get up in my head
It would surely kill me; kill me 'till I'm dead.

Perhaps we'd be a couple
But this idea? I find it supple.
If I'd done anything to hurt you,
I'd simply feel bad for causing trouble.

I can't risk breaking one's heart; those of those I care for the most.
I shall ever remain depressed
And this hath been the ultimate test
To keep myself from you, and all the rest.
I guess we'll see what comes from
my ever aching heart made from alum.
It was crafted just for this sort of thing
But when I heard that song inside me sing
The rock began to loudly ring
The shields of my heart come down
I still wonder, "What was that sound?"
I now know that sound
I know that sound, and I heard it pound
I knew what this was, at that very moment
It was my vulnerability... It had finally opened.

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